Diary | Age 13 | Tacoma

I had the most vivid dream last night. You see, in it, I was myself, but everything else was different, and I was sitting at home in my living room, acting depressed (I’m not sure if I was acting, or really bothered). Colin (the gorgious [sic] guy from class) was there too, and suddenly he came over and we just had this sweet, passionate kiss (for me, it would have been my first kiss, but for the ‘dream Sarah’ – I don’t think so).

It felt so good, and even though it was just a dream, I could feel his lips, everything so sensual. So then, Chris Gorely came over, and he acted all sweet (like he does sometimes) and just rested his hand on the chair and asked Colin something.

I don’t know how, but next I was in my bedroom, getting ready to make out with Colin (look, Colin, I really don’t make up these dreams – sorry) doing stuff like trying to find the right bra and all, and all the time, I thought about what I was getting myself into, I mean, I wasn’t worried or anything I just felt like I should be.

Now the strange thing was, all throughout this process, people were coming into my room, and giving me advise (my mom, Jan Carlile, etc.). I was really paranoid that I was going to mess up (or something) but still I was excited.

So this bazarre [sic] dream ended with one of those “you make the disision”s [sic]. I’m still debating what I should have done. I know, I know, I should avoid that kind of stuff, and I would, but right then. I don’t know. I’ll keep you posted.
Sarah Hoopes

P.S. I do not want you to get weird ideas about me. For heaven’s sake, I’m only 13, and yes of course I am a virgin.
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More dreams tonight? Hope so, I love dreams.